Truth be told, I’ve never been a trend setter. I’ve always loved things long before they become cool or fancied them well after the entire world’s made it their own. Why? Who knows, but I’m ok that.
So keeping course with my usual self, I finally…. I mean finally “tested out” a social media free weekend. After all, I had to see what all the fuss was about!
Nah. Thats not fully truth.
I spent a good deal of time in therapy when I was a teen, learning to cope, manage and overcome my battle with anorexia, anxiety and every other derivative of OCD possible. Back then, before facebook, instagram, iphone and digital cameras that uploaded to social media, it wasn’t common for folks to take pictures of things other than people or events, unless they were a professional or an artist.
I lived constantly in the past and in the future, with no acknowledgment of the present or even my reality for that matter. One of my “prescribed medications” was a camera- a good ol’ fashioned wined up disposable. Each week, I had to take photos of things that made me stop and look- something that caught my eye and brought me out of my “head” into reality, if even for a moment. Sometimes it was a stranger, a random finding, archetcture or simply nature. And after developing them and returning to my next session, photos in hand, we reviewed what it was- what emotion, sensation, feeling or longing is was, that tugged at my heart strings enough to make me stop.
Trust me. If you had been in my head, that was a feat of its own. But what I learnt so quickly was how much I had been missing! How beautiful life really was. How precious, meaningful, alive and story filled it was. I had been missing the opportunity to truly experience and live my own life- to write the chapters of my own adventure novel. I was too busy living the fictional one in my head.
The long and short of it is this. This simple lesson was the turning point in my recovery and to this day fuels my passion for taking photos; ordinary photos of simple, everyday moments that weave the beautiful story of my life – the ones I choose to celebrate. Its how I honour God and thank him for the little things that truly set my heart on fire. [Hello..meet my instagram obsession that started LONG LONG ago before it became a community, journal or business tool. The fact that I have people to talk to in it now is just a bonus!]
So back to my point and social media free weekends. I saw no need for it. I wasn’t addicted to social media. I no longer have a problem with living online vs in real life. I simply crave taking photos on the weekend when I actually have time to enjoy my hobby and eagerly anticipate it all week long! And come off it… whats the point of taking a photo of nothing without posting it to a social media outlet, right 😉 Well not really, but thats what’s become of our society, simply by habit and social acceptance. And the fact of the matter is, I fell prey to it too…
So on a whim, I decided to give it a try. How hard could it be? Three days free of social media and posting of my much loved “moment in time” snap shots. But truth is, it was difficult. So many times I found myself picking up my phone, simply because I had two seconds I wasn’t doing anything! [Heaven forbid I have to wait for the elevator, for my dog to go pee or even myself for that matter. Admit it. You do it too!] Quickly I realized how much time there really was in a day to do the things I really really love, but never seem to get around to- like reading, editing photos, baking, crafting, taking baths and sitting, just for the sake of it! I had more meaningly conversations than I could count on one hand and truly felt like I was 100% present to love those right in front of me. I heard God’s promptings more clearing and I spend more focused and uninterrupted time in my devotionals. Simply put, I was a better version of me and life was that much MORE beautiful. I still took photos, but I found going back to them later in the week allowed me to re-appreciate all over again, that precious moment in time. And this week? I feel more refreshed, renewed and focused on what matters than ever! Ready to give my days to the Lord more joyfully and strive to make further progress on my 2013 vision.
While I will openly admit, I didn’t see a “need” for social media free weekends in my life, I’m 100% on board here forward! Thank you Lara for opening my eyes and yet again encouraging growth, and a life lived on purpose… one of love, experienced from the inside.
Confession, I’m even considering getting rid of cable! God’s working on me though. In time …