I feel all sorts of goofy and giddy; like the beginning of young love. My heart beats fast, I blush when I realize he’s looking at me and I’ll find just about any excuse to be alone with him.
I break out in song because every one feels like the perfect ballot to belt out my love. I’ve picked about twelve songs that feel like “ours” right now.
But the truth is, this isn’t the first time I’ve fallen in love with him, nor the second. And yet it feels like new love all over again. He’s arrested my heart and stolen my devotion for the 100th time.
Unreserved, unrestrained, your love is wild, Your love is wild for me,
It isn’t shy, it’s unashamed your love is proud to be seen with me
You don’t give your heart in pieces, you don’t hide yourself to tease us
Uncontrolled, uncontained, your love is a fire
Burning bright for me
It’s not just a spark , its not just a flame your love is a light
That all the world will see – Pieces | Amanda Cook
Like the flood gates of grace have opened up again and the dam breaks, his love rushing over me. I’m swimming in it; overcome by it.
I can smell the sweet scent of a man I love dearly and see his love letters tucked in every nook and cranny. Some say happenstance, but I know better
… know better than to believe he’s not my bridegroom, madly in love with me, ever persistent in his pursuit of all my heart; of my total surrender to his all consuming love.
Call me a fool but I’m a fool in love.
In love with a man who loved me enough to die for me.
In love with a father who adores me to pieces.
In love with a Spirit who belts my deepest heart cries.
With all the sand that fills the hourglass
With every breath between my first and last
I love You
I’m trying to
Love You more
Please help me
Love You more – Nichol Nordeman | Love you More
Prayer is such a huge topic and I won’t pretend to have all the answers. But what I do know is this:
My entire faith changed and so did my prayer life when I began these two practices:
Closing my eyes, envisioning Jesus in front of me and sharing my heart with him; my honest, unfiltered and unreserved thoughts and feelings. And then waiting…. and listening for his response.
Sometimes I’ll simply turn on worship music, lie down and close my eyes. I’ll invite the Holy Spirit to speak to me and then wait in silence. Sometimes he shows me visions, sometimes I see pictures, other times words or phrases come to mind. But whatever comes, I sit in it and allow it to wash over me, trusting his leading.
There are lots of difference ways to do meditative prayer. I personally used the guided encounters in Heart Made Whole and Guided Encounters by Christa Black Gifford to learn this practice and have adapted it to suit my personal prayer life.
Writing Out and Praying God’s Word back to Him
I was challenged to try reading the bible like I would a novel, without analyzing and studying it, just letting it hit me and stir me naturally. And when it did, to write it out.
I started in Ephesians and began to make my way through the epistles (letters). An amazing thing happened: almost every line caused me to stop and think. It was something I wanted for myself, something I felt convicted by, advice or encouragement I wanted to share with a friend or a new revelation of sorts. I would write whatever it was out – sometimes a single passage, other times entire paragraphs – personalizing it for myself or for those I love. Finally I would then pray it back to God.
I cannot explain what followed other than this: I now know with my heart and not just my head that God’s word is powerful! And he most definitely watches over his word to perform it. When we pray it, he hears us and we can count it already ours!
I have seen miracle after miracle after changed heart and behaviour – in myself and others – since beginning this practice. And it’s rocking my world.