Today I watched you play and all the world just fell away.
It was exactly what I needed, because lately my worlds felt heavy and today I couldn’t carry it a second longer. I needed to remove the load and walk away, even if only for an evening.
We were at grandma and grandpas- great grandparents to you- in the same home, with the same smells and the same blankets to cuddle in. The ones I used to wrap myself in when I was your age.
I watched grandma run after you, sing songs, play pretend and teach you new tricks, all the while you squealing and babbling in delight. She used to do that with me too.
I watched her pick Disney movies, pull you up on the big soft bed and dim the lights so the room was all cozy. She used to do that with me too.
She fed you dinner, poured you juice and sent you home with a Nic Nac bag or two. She used to do that with me too.
And while nothings changed – no problems were solved and no deep conversation was had – everything felt right in my world. What we shared instead was something better; something mommy needed more instead: comfort, company and simple unconditional love.
Because 90% of showing you care is simply showing up.
Love doesn’t always have to try – to be intense, exhaustive or laborious. It doesn’t always have to have the answers or silver line the hard stuff. Is doesn’t always have to ask questions. Love is sometimes just about being there; being humble and quiet, ordinary and predictable.
‘Cause when all the world feels upside down, this kind of love speaks louder.