“Put yourself in the place of the first follows of Jesus Christ, who were there for his death. Your heart would be broken. Your mind would be racing. This isn’t anything at all like what was supposed to happen to the king! He was supposed to set everything right. Mend what was broken and restore what was lost. But everything is still broken and nothing is right. It would seem, that all is lost; all Hope gone. ”
As I read this, my first thought was, but why! Thats ridiculous! Jesus had told the disciples He would be leaving them, what to expect and not to loose hope…
“Jesus said to the disciples, “We are going up to Jerusalem, and the Son of Man will be delivered over to the chief priests and the teachers of the law. They will condemn him to death and will hand him over to the Gentiles to be mocked and flogged and crucified. On the third day he will be raised to life!” Matthew 20:17-19
So, why would they stand there like blind, uninformed, strangers of Jesus?! I closed the reading rather annoyed and pondering the “why” of it, all morning.
As I sat in the pew, awaiting the Good Friday service’s commence, I heard the gentle words, “Oh how much you are like my disciples.”
I shook my head and replayed the words over and over. Then it hit me, I indeed am, just like his disciples! While I’ve proclaimed it in other instances, why did my pride keep me from seeing it now? Because this is the headliner? If I were present for Jesus’ crucifixions I surely wouldn’t miss the point, doubt and loose hope, letting every conversation we’d had fly out the window? I’d love to say yes, but my actions in this life, prove otherwise. Oh how I doubt, forget his promises and lean on my [small, limited, human] understanding sometimes!
God shows us how to live, both by example in Jesus and by his word. He reveals his promises to us, to hold close and remember in hard times. He chooses to live in us through the Holy Spirit, for our benefit, so that he can always be close and walk with us through every circumstance, leading and guiding us at every bend…..YET!
“It is finished!” John 19:30
And with his sacrifice it surely is…finished! Jesus paid the debt, in full for for every single person, you and me, from the time we were born, through to our own death. We are free to live in unity with God, enjoying an intimate, personal relationship with him. How unbelievable is that! How undeserving are we!
Quiet my soul remember
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost
Tempted and trialed
The word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you’re risen
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You