Refuge in Grace

These last few months have been a whirlwind of emotion, strife, growth and joy. The feats I have gained and the things I’ve battled would have been impossible, a few years ago.  God has opened my eyes to strength, compassion and such joy. And when things seem unmanageable, I am reminded to cast my eyes on him; his ways. his will. his timing.

The good news is, I’m privy to one powerful and interesting testimony!

When I thought things couldn’t possibly get harder or “worse,”  they did. The to do list, the demands, the responsibilities all kept piling up, with barely enough time to breath.  Life so busy, showering seams wasteful, eating seams tedious and  makeup has no place. And the CHANGE!  Such unbelievable change…ALL at once!  {my, my, the OCD in me screams for control} 

And while I could choose to cry, hide or wallow, I choose to laugh. Clearly God is preparing me for great thingsor at least, I’m holding on to that! When I really look closely, I realize he has blessed and equipped me so appropriately for this season. And without such blessings, I would not be standing tall, continually pushing through the fear, the risks and hard work. They are {the only reason} I can laugh in joy, acceptance and even excitement at my circumstance. As the pile builds, my blessings grow.

My friends. My lifeline. The thought of their beautiful faces brings tears to my eyes. Their confidence and belief in me is surreal; the ongoing texts of encouragement, the mid day phone call to check in and push me to each day’s  finish line, their gracious expectations of taking on my stress and to-do’s, and their ability to always direct my worries to God, is empowering. What profoundly incredible ladies I have behind me!

My sweetheart; the one who shares my heart, my passions and my struggles. No matter the day, the moment or the ordeal, he is my safe haven. In all chaos he bring me peace, sanity and the purest form of joy. One that fills me from the inside out, makes me feel invincible and able to take on the world. I could not ask for a better man to call my own.

My running buddy, Guinness, the ultra adorable labradoodle. His wagging tail encourages me to take a break and admire God’s beautiful creation. His kiss and smiles tell me everything will be ok. And his ever perfect cuddles, provide refuge for my tired soul. Such pure and loyal love, reminds me of the simple pleasures in life, I relish.

And most powerful of all, my faith. God has humbled my heart and opened its capacity to love and be vulnerable, in ways I never dreamt possible. Through him, I can do all things and I lean not on my own understanding. To this life, I bring an irreplaceable, mountain moving, game changing  faith. One that moves me to the core. And when my ego tries to run and hide, my hearts holds on…stronger, tighter, longer. My faith will pull me through.

I sit today, moved by grace and love: for that I am thankful.

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.  Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” ~ 2 Corinthians 12:9

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